Monday, August 03, 2009


Something's off. I can't put my finger on it, but it is. I feel like retreating from the world entirely. Disconnecting cable, ditching DSL, stomping out my celly, the whole nine. I'm overstimulated. I can't stand the outside world. At TAD's crib, she doesn't have internet or cable, and whenever I leave there and come home, I feel remarkably refreshed. On top of that I can turn off my phone and not feel like I'm missing anything. I know all this is specious reasoning. I obviously feel better because I'm spending time with my wife. But seriously, when I come back to Satan's Anus, I'm inundated with THE WORLD. News, important and unimportant, phone calls, emails, Facebook, and other bullshit overwhelm me. That urgency seeps back into my life, even though none of it is really urgent at all. I don't miss my favorite TV program until I'm reminded that I missed it. Fuck the 3,000 th forward from my Uncle Louie on the N.U.D. certain companies employ. I'm perfectly OK missing out. I didn't used to be, but now, I think I can take it.

Will I be perceived as a freak if I retreat from the world? Nobody would even know about the cable thing. The internet thing would be the hardest, but I could easily make that up at work. And if I only answered TAD and my mother's calls, I don't think I'd be missed. It might be worth a trial run.



A.u.n.t. Jackie said...

i didn't have a tv for 7 years..but then again i was living in the middle of the ocean and smoking allot of pot then.

I know that tv and internet affect my creativity and productivity when I let them run me, but i also know i have a choice and can turn them off.

if you need more silence and space to think, go for it.

Blah Blah Blah said...

my father doesn't own a tv and I can't get phone coverage at his place...I stayed a month at his place last year...I didn't miss either very much.
There are days I don't turn on my tv and this past weekend I don't think I answered my cell but twice. could do it. But tell me, what would you do, in the Anus, without the extra stimuli? Read, write, sleep, or be more social with your fellow Anusanians?

Knockout Zed said...

Weed helps. A lot. I haven't smoked it in about 10 years. I might just be lazy.

If I had the extra time, I could probably finish the 5 books I have bookmarks in right now. I should finish them anyway. I don't know how your father does it.


onefromphilly said...

When I'm not at work I don't go near the computer. I don't own a laptop. No Facebook, no email, no blogs, no, No, NADA! I'm on this thing all day Monday-Friday,nights and weekends I just can't. Those times are for people that I really know! will save your sanity

chele said...

Do it. I went to the beach for a week and no internet, no one called me and all we watched were Entourage DVDs. It was wonderful.