Tuesday, June 13, 2006

Dreams

I don't dream very often. And trust me when I say I don't dream very imaginative dreams. OK, I dream pretty good shit occasionally, but I mostly dream about fighting. That mainly has to do with my preparation issues. I'm never prepared for the fight and I always lose. Keeps me on my toes when I'm awake.

Anyway I had a two parter last night, which is extremely rare. In the first one, I was waiting in line to use the restroom. It was at my office building and there was a long line for some reason. I was almost in when this group of cats came in and pushed a bunch of us out of the way. I rushed into the restroom and started talking shit to one of the guys, who was much bigger than I was. He laughed it off and pushed me again. "Go somewhere and be a good nigger, OK?" That's what he said to me. Time to fight again, right? Nope. I laughed too. We were laughing together. I was frustrated and upset, but I couldn't stop laughing. He patted me on my back and I walked out and got back in line.

The second dream consisted of a muthafucka talking to me that I couldn't see. He was telling me who wrote the derogatory comments anonymously on my blog a few months ago. I don't know why I dreamt it, except for the fact that I blog too much. I hadn't thought about those comments in awhile and I know in my heart who wrote that shit anyway.

Of course this shit is full of symbolism and deep seeded anxiety, but there was something more at work. I woke up pissed. I coulda choked a muthafucka. It's still physically bothering me and I don't dream like that. I can't shake this shit.

I'll be in Chicago until Saturday afternoon then I'll be in Detroit for legitimate frat business. I don't know how much I'll blog since I'll be in real cities until Sunday. Surely I'll get some stories out to y'all.

Be Easy,
KZ

19 comments:

Disco said...

They say that dreams are your subconscious trying to work out an issuein your conscious world....

Guess that's why I KEEP dreaming about cursing my boss the FUCK OUT!!! And personally, I think THAT dream for me is just wishful thinking! LOL

But, that first dream is interesting because you were offended, but you did nothing, you walked away.....interesting, for you are not like that in real life.....

chele said...

That is deep as hell ... I can see why it's bothering you.

i like liquor and tv said...

"The second dream consisted of a muthafucka talking to me that I couldn't see. He was telling me who wrote the derogatory comments anonymously on my blog a few months ago"

rofl@the Wizard of Blogs. too funny

Man I be having some CRAZY dreams...like every night son! Don't even get me started.

Mr.Slish said...

I remember waay back when I had a series of dreams. In them I taught myself to fly. So now when I dream and I'm in a fucked up situation I just fly away..Kinda like my life when ever shit gets to rough I run or give up...lol..

Supa said...

"legitimate frat business"

Like how you qualified that!

I see dead people in my dreams. Feel lucky.

Have a great weekend, Zeddie!!

Honest said...

Wow, you've got a lot going on.

On a lighter note, grab your laptop and keep us posted real time. Have fun.

Knockout Zed said...

@Robyn
I'm a little bitch in my subconscious.

@Chele
Ahh, Chele...ahhhh! OK, now that I'm done looking at your pic...

I just now, some 6 hours later feel like myself again.

@L and TV
The Wizard of Blogs is my muthafucka! He came clean and dimed out the culprit.

@Slish
I wish my dreams taught me useful stuff, like how to pull chicks with absolutely no game.

@Supa
It is actually legit this time. That's the first time I've been able to say that in a long time.

I'll be at a workshop that'll be kickin' my ass. But I asked for it I guess.

@Honest
The laptop is packed and I'll be on the road in an hour or so. I'll write, but I'll probably be overwhelmed by the population density.

KZ

Anonymous said...

Yo...maybe the "Good Nigger" dream is how you subconciously feel your boss feels. In addition the waiting in line could be how you feel about your career ~ Alot of standing around ans waiting for your turn *shrug*

The blogger deal ~ That you may not see some people you deal with often for who they REALLY are. (ie those closest are the ones you SHOULD worry about cause you overlook their shortcomings)

Little Brown Girl said...

This is scary....today I blogged about a recurring dream I continue to have. And your dreaming too. Granted my shyt is long and detailed but still strange.

Anyway, I am not good at interpreting dreams, which is why I posted mine. But hopefully you'll figure it out. At least the same dream isn't haunting you over and over again like mine is.

Have a safe trip and tell Mr. Robert Mack I said HOLA!!! Hope you plan to check his play (FRAT SHYT..yeah fukkin right)

SMOOCHIES!!!!

Knockout Zed said...

@CG
I rarely remember my dreams. This shit just shook me.

@Newy
Blogger is starting to spook me. You never know what you don't know until you know it. (Yeah, I been drinkin')

@RD
Hey baby! Nice new pic. All glossy and flossy and shit.

I gotta check out your post and see what's what.

I'll see Mack gettin' his thespian on!

KZ

A.u.n.t. Jackie said...

might I suggest that upon your return if not before you leave you burn some sage in house..i know it may sound crazy, but the bad dreams, the bad vibes, sometimes need to be cleansed...

I see the future in my dreams....often so I take them very very seriously!

Blah Blah Blah said...

@ Ahmad: mama musta taught you the sme thing....I keep sage in the house...but that comes from the indian side of the family.

@ Zed: Ummm.....

So...Wise...Sista said...

Yesss! Dream analysis time...

Umm, son, you got issues. j/k lol

I'm guessing the 1st dream is an extension of what you write about quite a bit...feeling stagnant, and not feeling like doing anything about it. The blog dream, you're right, is probably literally that you and blogger are getting too tight. lol You woke up pissed, bec your dream had no resolution, and you're consciously now still anxious. Good thing you're skipping town. Should do you some good, sugar.

Yes, I do accept all forms of insurance. ;)

PS - Slish, yes I do have a couch for you as well...but show Barneys the receipt cuz I don't want no drama.

ChezNiki said...

@Knockout-Okay so, bathroom dreams usually mean that you need to release, cleanse or eliminate something from your life...

I tried to help Royce's with her dream over there. I can only do so much because I dont know you, but I can take a stab at it.

First Dream
I think this dream is job-related. You wanna get out of it (your job, the Anus) or get it out of you.
However, not only are some powerful racist a$$holes holding you back from your goal of release/excape, (dudes cutting the line and insulting you)
but also you are holding yourself back (getting on line in the first place when there's got to be another free bathroom somewhere, returning to the line after dude insults you).
Also, I dont think you punked out in your dream. You made a calculated decision, based on the power (size and number) of the dudes involved, even though you were "frustrated and upset".

I didnt start following your blog early enough to find out why you have to stay in the Anus for another year, but maybe your heart's not in it.

Also, you may want to "release yourself" with Auntie but you are biding your time (waiting on line) so that you dont cross any workplace boundaries, piss off the higher ups or cause any lawsuits (should things go bad).

Second Dream? That was you talking to yourself. You already know who "anonymous" was...

@Slish-You taught yourself how to fly in real life...not to run away but to succeed despite the circumstances...think about it and get back to me.

@Miss Ahmad + Blah-We use sage in my family during house warmings, (Yoruba tradition) but it smells so much like weed, we dont keep it burning too long (dont wanna scare the neighbors) LOL!

TRUTHZ said...

you are in the Chi!!!! make sure you stop by and get you some real white castles...

dreams are a trip especially when you can't figure out the message you are supposed to be getting... i keep dreaming that im naked running through the rain, now either it means that i need to take a shower or it means that i need to wash my clothes..
not sure

The Brown Blogger said...

Nah, if you're inthe Chi, make sure you cop some Harold's man...

Once I switched brands (Bacardi now) them bad ass dreams dried the fuck up

Sangindiva said...

Have a great time in the "real" cities
hahaha!
I have never had a dream where I woke up ready to choke a mutha...
that's pretty deep.

BKBajan said...

@ Chezniki, I'm dreaming about lotto can you hook a sista up with 6 numbers. . . cuz you seem to be pretty good dream catcher.

The Stiltwalker said...

I had a dream last nite about the guy who drives me bus. He was having sex with a cat. interesting...