The Urgency

I was in the "D" visiting T.A.D. on Sunday and Monday. We went to this play on Sunday evening. It was decent, earnest in its efforts. Before the play started, T.A.D. and I were cracking on people coming through the door. We got busted by this couple sitting next to us. "Y'all havin' too much fun down there talkin' about folks!"

After we left the play, we went out to eat then we went back to her crib and watched "Litt.le Miss Sun.shine", which was a funny movie, at least the parts we saw in between talking. I brought a few DVDs with me. I put in "Love Jones", a movie I hadn't seen in close to ten years. T.A.D. was pretty much down for the count by the time I started it, but she tried to be a trooper.

As I watched the movie, I realized the dude I'd identified with so much when the movie came out, struck me as a complete cornball. I was watching thinking "What is this African on?" It got painful in spots. The overall emotional impact of the joint was still major. I remember instances in a bunch of different relationships that mirrored the shit that the protagonist was going through. When something would ring especially true, I'd look over at T.A.D. who by this time was intermittently knocked out and awake.

It was at the end when I was completely brought back to the emotional heft that movie has had for me all these years.

Nina: You always want what you want when you want it. Why is everything so urgent with you?
Darius: Let me tell you somethin'. This here, right now, at this very moment, is all that matters to me. I love you. That's urgent like a muthafucka.

Urgent, indeed.

Love,
KZ